Saya Ingin Menjerit

Rasanya beban hidup ini semakin berat saja. Entah dari orang terdekat, teman, dan lainnya. Dan baru-baru

ini, keluarga saya. Yang  sampai berhasil membuat saya stress, depresi, aduuhh pokoknya serasa muncrat otak saya.. Saya ingin menjerit...... AAAAAAA... Bingung, kenapa saya diciptakan menjadi saya. Kenapa takdir saya seperti ini?
Ingin marah rasanya, ingin memarahi semua orang yang ada.
Tapi akhirnya saya lukiskan kedalam kata-kata

Everything that I want, never I got. Why? I think, it because I’m too much ugly. I’m very-very hopeful. But at last, I’m very-very hopeless. But, I don’t know. Why I still waiting for you. Why I still remembering all about you?.  I’m ready to hurt again. I’m ready to see that you were happy. With someone—not me—who was more beauty , more in everything else than me.

Actually, I’m very want to ask you, “do you know something about my felling to you?” but, I was know what your answer, “I’m sorry, I can’t”.

All day, I’m try so hard to forgotten you. To forgot your sweet word to me, forgot your face at smile. But, It’s make me more and more remember you.

Why you come in my life if you just want to hurting me? Why you say that you love me so much if you still with her?

Last, you say that you wait me. But now? Where are you? I can’t find you in everywhere.

What? Now, you looking at me. But I don’t know what that mean. Your choice like bruise in my heart.. I’m hate it, I’m very hate it.

Apa lagi yang harus saya lakukan, kadang saya berpikir "Saya masih belum bisa menerima ini, mengalami, dan bahkan harus memperbaiki.. Dan saat semua terjadi.. Oh rasanya.... AAAAAAAAAAAA